And so we failed.

I think Im meant to be alone.. my entire life.

I ruined the relationship I built for 8 years and this is the worst thing that ever happened to us.

We were not like this. We were happy, full of fun, games, and we had strong communication and commitments. We’re so transparent with each other that I know what he’s thinking and how he feels in only a second of gaze.

We’re so aligned that we strongly agreed we were both made for each other, a destiny, each other’s soulmate. We had the same dreams, goals, wants and need in life, we had the same vision, belief, and interests that we almost never fight.

Yes, we fought but with only small things home stuff, kitchen stuff, bathroom stuff, groceries, meal plans but we always make up to it.

But this time, this is real. Who would have thought that this day would come? I didnt. Maybe this is making us stronger? Knowing each other more? How we deal with stress and how he fully understood my way of thinking. Anxiety, overthinking, emotional breakdowns then and now. 

I ruined our relationship. Families are involved, loved-ones.. A lot of unwanted words were heard, that should never, or else, end of the world.

I reached to the point where majority of my supporting reasons reached ending the relationship. We are not healthy for each other. We just make things suffocating and triggering for us. Although I wanted us to be together, but things like these cant be fixed. 

Maybe it’s all a test of time..

..and so we failed.

– Angel